what's cooking?

i've just finished watching "Julie & Julia". it was very inspiring for me. all those cooking tips and recipes, plus the funny dialogues...i loved it!

since i got here in stryn, i have developed a liking to cooking. i was bolder at first, trying new recipes every day, from chinese to my made-up portuguese (sorry, always a liar) recipes. my host family was always generous with their compliments on my amateur cooking. but i felt good.

passion, however, is not yet an added ingredient to my cooking. yes, i love to cook at times. but there are also times when i just want to stare at the computer while waiting for the instant noodles to be ready. mmmmm...lazy lifestyle, i know.

for julie and julia, i'll always picture the two of you in my mind when i'm in the kitchen.

happy cooking!

dito ba? dito ba?

i share the feeling of those who are terminally ill and about to die. only that, those who are dying, most of them at least, know where they are going after their last breath....while i, still living, am already in a limbo.

i only have 9 months and 28 days left. after that, i don't know where i'm going. i don't see myself anywhere else either after that time. i am so doomed! and i am scared.

there is no reason for me to go back to the Philippines. well, maybe, if Julian will propose...SNAP! reality check! okay, i have nothing to go back home to. no job. no whatsoever. doomed, see?!

there has been an opportunity for studies. yet again, i have no financial back up. where the hell should i get the 90,000 nok to finance my schooling? ugh! helplessly doomed!

what about marriage? is there someone out there who needs a wife? someone who needs love and wants to be loved? i'm just here! sulking within the corners of Stryn.....