last day of my 2nd 29th

today marks the last day of my 2nd 29th birthday. i'm trying to be not overly dramatic about it. (ehem! ehem!)

last year, i was hiding from my friends. i didn't want to make a big deal about my 2nd 29th. so, i lied. i told them that i won't be home and all those web-tangling stories. it worked! or so i thought. but at the end of that day, i walked my way to sharon's place with a bottle of wine because i realized that i didn't want to be completely alone.

i'm trying to remember the things that happened today. hmmm....

oh! i woke up at 7:10, snoozed my alarm for another 10 minutes and did my morning ritual. when i came down to the kitchen, Finn-Einar was there already preparing his own breakfast. he chuckled and said good morning when he saw me. i asked why he gave me the chuckling sound. he said "I'm just happy that it's possible for you not to be perfect". huh! my sleepy mind was saying "me perfect? no way!"

kjersti was in a rush to go to a meeting while Felix was enjoying the privilege of staying in bed longer than usual. we had breakfast together. i had cereals while he had a slice of bread with smelly sardines on top.

Felix left with Rebecca at quarter to 11. i did my chores. and i was in a tumbling mode when the thought of visiting Janice in Roermond hit me. i immediately wrote a message to her on FB, checked the flights and voila! by late afternoon, i booked a ticket to Dusseldorf!

Felix came home with a friend, Ole. Oscar was held hostage by the boys in the basement. he was their target with their new waterguns. poor kuya O. he was wet and smelly when he was finally released. the poor dog was scared of the boys that when we were having dinner he hid under my chair.

i made baked chicken with curry sauce and potatoes. Rebecca liked it ; )

mr. bean and his kids borrowed kuya O.

watched tv with Felix. Kjersti was so tired when she got home..and so was i. i hit the sheets at around 7, woke up at quarter past 8, took kuya O for a walk, showered when i got home and now, i'm blogging.

today hasn't been sunny, but at least it didn't rain. the sky was covered with thick clouds.

i particularly love my new hairstyle, courtesy of my bored self.

the guilt feeling of a sub-parent

i was 200 metres away from the kindergarten when i noticed that cars are blocking the streets of Vikalida. wondering what was happening, i walked faster while dragging kuya O along with me, worried that Felix might be the only kid left in barnehage. but no! he won't be the last kid to be picked up today. in fact, there was a crowd of kids, parents and kindergarten teachers in the upper hill of Vikalida.

it turned out that the kindergarten was having a "summerfest". there was a little talent show from the kids and the ones who belong in the førsteskule group were given memorabilia since they are soon leaving Vikalida. the program ended just as entered the gate.

i immediately looked for Felix. as he's always hard to track, one of the teachers helped me locate him. and there he was, joining the table of Kristian and his parents. as i said hello to him, he got teary-eyed and red all over his face. i asked him what was wrong. and he said, "why didn't you come earlier? i was the only kid without a parent". when his sobs came after that statement, i was enveloped with guilt and i felt so sorry for him that i was on the verge of crying too. i just hugged and consoled him and told him that i was sorry, i didn't know that there's a summerfest and that everything is okay because i was there for him. to finally stop the sobs, i asked him if he wanted a piece of cake and pizza. and voila! he was okay again. he was so happy to show me his pictures since he joined the kindergarten. and before i knew it, he was already running around with his friends.

but the guilt in me remains. i am just a sub-parent who missed the kid's summerfest. i wish someone would ask me if i want a slice of cake or pizza just so this guilt will fade away.