not again!

my dear Rose,

this is one of those mornings when you occupied my mind before i even gained consciousness. that the first thing i would have wanted, is to hear your voice...and your laughter.

this is a sign...a sign that i am falling again.

and you wouldn't be here to catch me because you're so far away. why did you have to be so far away? why did fate even bring us to know each other, when we can't even be together? why did i have to know you and not even meet you? why did you have to share your laughter with me, and leave me haunted by the sound of it? why did you have to knock and enter the door of my life? why did i let you in?

all i know now is, i have to answer my what if's. by then, maybe, just maybe, you would be able to answer my why's.......

supposedly....

i have been so used
to being alone
with no one to depend on

i was used to
doing things on my own
at my own pace
at my own time

i am a happy person
and i find happiness
in almost everything
around me

then you came
suddenly my happiness
depended on you
i started to long for you
to wait for you
to consider you in whatever i do

then
i fell in love
with you