snowy January

we've had snow since the first day of the month and it just makes everything so light and bright. i love fresh snow. it brings out the child in me. it makes me want to eat halo-halo 😁                                                                                                            last sunday, we had a lot of snow work in the morning, we went out a little before midday and there was about 7cm of snow waiting for us to shovel. for Fasu and me, it means playtime! of course, i did some snow work, too 😉                                                                  after working, we went for a walk in the forest. it was magical. it felt magical. the snow really changes things. people seem to be a lot happier carrying their skis on their backs, walking their dogs or just walking alone or with friends. we even met a girl with a 7-week old puppy. the puppy was just adorable, wagging its tail and smelling us. Fasu was a little bit hesitant to meet the puppy. cute little creatures.                                                                                                    i hope the snow will stay for long. my weatherman hasn't mentioned anything about snow coming any time soon. but the minus temperature will keep the snow on the ground, the rooftop, and trees for a while.                                                                                  my happiness stays...

                                                    

                                          

 

the 40-something me

now that i'm of this age, i have noticed some things (physical, emotional) that, could have already been within me before, but i haven't really given thought about...

okay, so physically....when i entered the gate of my 40's, i began to notice gray hair striking everywhere through my bushy head. they really bothered me at first. i would look in the mirror and check my hair and i pull out the gray ones right away. which, to my great annoyance, grow back almost there and then. the odd hair don't bother me as much now, but i've been considering dying my hair total gray. what's that saying? "if you can't beat them, join them".

losing weight is a struggle. i have always struggled with my weight since high school and i haven't gotten over that issue. but in my younger years, if i want to lose some weight, i would only eat like a spoonful of rice for each meal. that's 3x a day. and it worked. in those days of my youth, i had powerful control over my appetite. obviously, now, i am experiencing an irreconcilable fight with my diet. no matter how i incorporate exercise and a healthy diet in my routine, the weight just stacks up. well....well...

do i have to mention wrinkles and sunspots? 

next!!!

emotionally, i feel like i'm getting more dispassionate. i don't like being emotionally attached to someone or something. i have become more irritable and impatient. i can no longer stand listening to someone talk about things that don't interest me. it makes me want to scream! i can put on a polite facade but inside, i want to bellow! i have become this control-freak that if things don't go as i want them to be, i get angry easily. and i want to be alone more now than ever....and spend my time reading, doing crochet, watching tv series or just sewing some plush reflectors...in silence

gosh! that sounds like i'm turning into a monster 😱

also,

i used to love watching movies over and over again until i memorize the lines. but now, i can't stand watching any movie the second time especially when the conflict starts. i can no longer bear it.

p.s. when i turn out to be more horrifying than what i already am, i might update this one 🙈

sleeping through 2020 to 2021

i might have done it last year, too. but yes, i slept while the rest of the world was welcoming 2021 with all hopes of a better year.

i didn't mean it, though. we were watching "the sisters" movie on tv after dinner. i wasn't so excited with the welcoming of the new year, but i was determined to stay awake. Jukka bought a box of sparkler for me and i wanted to play with it. sparks make me happy. alas, i went to dreamland!

i heard fireworks (was it in my dreams or in reality)... but i can't go back to being awake once my sleepy head has rested on a pillow. 

my alarm woke me up at 7:03 in the morning on the first day of 2021. i have come to appreciate the silence in the morning when everyone else is still asleep. also, the view outside made me happy. it snowed the other day, so the trees and the rooftop were covered with snow. and there was a pinkish glitter behind the trees. it was beautiful! 

on my way to work, i saw a lot of people going for a walk in the forest. the view was just amazing! it's like Narnia! everything was covered with snow. it's not everyday that i get that kind of view while driving to work. January 1st 2021 was beautiful! i don't feel sorry that i missed the fireworks at midnight....

Happy New Year!!!