yeyyyy!!! last day of quarantine! i'm so happy that i survived this Covid. it was like the worst flu ever with dark clouds in my head all the time. i hope no one will get sick of Covid anymore...
i got to take a walk in the forest today. complete with four seasons in a span of an hour walk. i couldn't ask for more 😀
i guess that was winter saying goodbye and spring saying hi 🌞
i've been feeling a little down since tuesday. yesterday at work, i already felt bad but i was determined to finish my shift. also, i tested negative for Covid, so i thought there's no reason for me to skip work.
last night, i didn't sleep well. my throat was painful and i woke up many times at night. i had to wake up a little bit after 4 am because my shift starts at 5:30 😪 it was really difficult to move around and prepare my stuffs. i took another test, still it's negative.
i didn't feel it's right to call one of the girls to do my shift if i call in sick because then, i would have to wake them up. so, i went to work, prepared breakfast and everything at the cafe. when the first customer came and when i greeted him, i was surprised at how husky my voice sounded. hey, i've always dreamt of having a husky voice 😀 i tried modulating my voice when talking to other customers because i sounded quite weird.
around 8 am, i was already thinking to call the girl who's doing the day shift if she could come earlier because i was starting to feel worse. i sent her a message before 9 and she answered that she will come as soon as possible.
i left work at 9:30 and headed straight to home. while walking, i felt like i was floating or flying. i felt light-headed. i was also feeling very cold. that kind of cold that you feel in the middle of winter when you're out somewhere and the wind sips into your bones.
when i got home, i took another Covid test and it was negative. i managed to eat some yoghurt then settled on the couch with a fleece blanket and a warm cat. i closed the blinds and fell asleep.
i woke up around 12 and i felt feverish and disoriented. i felt like i've been to another planet.
for the rest of the day, i stayed in bed, watched youtube vlogs and slept. my throat is still painful and i have cough. i checked my temperature earlier and it was normal.
now, i'm waiting for daddy to come home and maybe eat some ice cream 😁
yes! i'm back at the second-hand shop again. i was already thinking to go to Helsinki on my day-off. i've been wanting to visit a Mochi cafe in the city. i was on the same cafe foundation training with the two young Chinese owners last autumn. i've been following their instagram feed and the mochis look so yummy and vibrant!
but then, one of the workers here at the shop is sick and someone has to fill-in her shift. so. here i am...
it's been very quiet since i came at 1300. but one customer shopped a lot of stuffs and i'm so happy ^_^
i finally had the time (and money ^_^) to visit my dentist. i haven't been in her clinic since the pandemic started. yes, it's awful. anyway, after my first visit to her, she asked me to visit the following week for another cleaning session because she couldn't brush away all the yucky stuffs in between my gums and teeth.
so i went to her clinic this morning. since it's my day-off, i was a bit of a not-in-the-mood today because i'm not used to having an appointment on my day-off. i usually just lazy around the house or do something in the house when i'm not at work. and today, early in the morning, i had to rush to my dentist. sigh!
i climbed the stairs to the 5th floor because i'm scared of riding the elevator. when i got there, i was panting. it took a while before my breathing calmed down. and when i was calm enough, she called me to take the dental chair.
i would be very happy not to feel the pain in my gums and not to hear the hissing sound of the dental machine for a loooong time. i've had enough for this month and this year...
today is my day-off. lucky for me, because i can just relax all day. i didn't get to sleep so well last night. i woke up in the middle of the night to pee. when i got back to bed, i remembered that there's one woman who visited the cafe yesterday who looked so familiar. i kept on thinking where i've seen her. maybe, it was from one of my extra jobs... or somewhere else... so that thought kept me busy all night. weird, huh? but that happens to me.
also, i heard something that sounded like an airplane. and i got scared thinking, what if it's a war plane?... well, these days, you never know, right?
i'm spending my day-off in the second-hand shop. it's my fourth time being here and i'm kind of liking it. i have been hesitant to work here at first, because everything that's new scares me and stresses me out. but now that i'm getting used to it, i don't mind at all. the customers are fairly nice and i haven't encountered any problems, so far.
for someone who doesn't speak fluent Finnish, it's a wonder to me how to connect with people. when people do small talks and make jokes, that's when i have some difficulty dealing with them. but when they just talk straight and say what they mean, then it's easier for me.
there's a lot of action from kids and parents (usually mothers) when they visit here. i just hide my smile behind my mask when i listen to some funny conversations between parents and their kids. so it's not a totally bad way to spend my rest day at work.
as i was editing this video, i was so stressed because of some stuffs at work. but i resolved to let it go and take it easy. when i got to work, i apologized to the ranting girl and everything was okay. one thing that i've learned here is to talk things out. you just have to be brave and let your mind and feelings be heard. i am used to keep everything for myself, it's a struggle to open up to others. it's still a struggle. but to survive in the work environment here, i have to be brave and accept my shortcomings and communicate with others. i may not do this all the time, but i try. and it really helps if you let the other person know what's bothering you.
so my work day went all so well. everything was so light eventhough it was quite busy. it's a nice way to end the week with a big smile and a clear mind...
