days 184 & 185 of 365 | the life of Joanna Marie

 i woke up at almost 9 in the morning. i haven't slept so long lately. everytime i have a morning shift the next day, i don't usually get a good night's sleep. 

daddy forwarded to me a message from Tara...

that nanay Lablab is gone. 😢😢😢

she was battling with cancer these past years...

i had a flashback of memories from our younger years.

i have known her through our theater group in the university.

we were casted in the play "mga aso sa artiaga"

since then, i've been calling her nanay.

she was carefree but also mature in her views in life

even in our college days.

we laughed hard in all the funny things that we talked about...

when she got married, i also get to call her husband tatay...

her kids...

i feel so much for her kids...

i know that her family will take good care of them.

i hope they will grow up to be good human beings.

thank you nanay Lablab for all the good memories.

may you rest in peace.

days 182 & 183 of 365 | the life of Joanna Marie

yesterday, we drove to Turku to celebrate Erik's 4th birthday.

on the way to Turku and back, daddy and i were talking about the plans for the place in Guimaras. i'm usually not in the mood everytime he talks about this. but yesterday seemed to be a good day. i'm just trying not to be too hopeful about it because i know that we don't have much budget for it. we agreed that we'll just use what we have and not stress about it too much. (i hope so...) 😀

the sun sets at 7 pm nowadays...

😔😔😔😔

winter is coming...

days 179, 180 & 181 of 365 | the life of Joanna Marie

today, i went to the woods with Fasu. we had the usual throw and fetch thing. i like to take a walk with her in that particular area because no one else rarely shows up when we are there. but today, someone did. and it was creepy because she followed us up to the parking area 😱

daddy chose a movie for us to watch last night. a 1963 movie "the birds" by Alfred Hitchcock. i actually fell asleep somewhere in the movie but i did have nightmares in my sleep. never going to watch movies about birds again...

days 176 & 177 of 365 | the life of Joanna Marie

i took a break from editing videos for a couple of weeks. i found a nice pattern for a bag and i thought instantly of making one for my sister...just in time for her birthday. i haven't crocheted a bag before so i was excited to do the project. and i think, it came out well...i actually like it a lot that i'm thinking to do another one for myself 😀

it's ruska time...

that's how they call it here in Finland, when the leaves turn to yellow or orange. it's a beautiful season of the year. last year, we drove up to Nuorgam to chase the ruska. and it's like candy to my eyes 😻

but here in Lahti, the leaves are starting to change to their autumn colors, too. i love walking more now...also, i love squishing the acorns that are spread on the ground. the cracking sound is so satisfying 😄

days 174 & 175 of 365 | the life of Joanna Marie

life's been nice lately...

or maybe, 

it's just that my mood has been nice lately

😂

perimenopause is a very challenging stage in a woman's life.

more than the hot flashes and night sweats,

the uncontrollable mood swings

are really hard to deal with. 

just imagine how hard much difficult it is with 

your partner to deal with 😄

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daddy's Estonian friends dropped by a while ago.

it was nice to talk to them. 

they were nice people.