reunited with love actually

i have been here in stryn for a month and 16 days. i haven't unpacked all my things yet. i just love the thrill of finding something everytime i open my suitcase. and today's delightful surprise: LOVE ACTUALLY!

i swear (delcorazon, i swear mamatay man ang mga lugay sa tyan ni felix) i didn't expect to find the dvd in my suitcase. i had to blink for several times just to double check if i'm really seeing what i'm seeing. and it was for real! no hallucinations!

it felt so good to see the movie again. imagine, i used to see it every night. surprisingly and not so surprisingly, i still found myself in a familiar emotional ground. crying at the scene where mark surprised his bestfriend and keira on their wedding with the song "all you need is love"; dancing with hugh grant in the "i'll take you down, i'll take you down" scene; singing my lungs out with joanna on her "all i want for christmas" part; loving liam neeson for everything that he was in the film and wishing that someone would knock on my door on christmas day with Mark's revelation-of-love-through-placard-thing.

the characters in the movie had been my (and mabeth's...thank you for the loan delcorazon) companions all throughout the gloomy and boring winter days in dk. and i am so happy (and guilty) to have the dvd with me...although i was supposed to hand it back to delcorazon before i left dk.

anyway, i am so convinced that surprises, like love, are actually all around.

threesome

riding

pakiramdaman muna kami ni lady







....and group picture with
rebecca and oscar


















tsaka may mga adjustments pa.....















finally, nakasakay na din si joanna marie kay lady and moonlight

sa tulong at gabay nina rebecca 1 and 2

thank you

lady and moonlight for my sored thighs...oh!
and for the wonderful gallopy ride
rebecca 1 and 2 for the horse loan
kjersti for the riding boots, 1 million percent encouragement
and for capturing my moments
malene for being such an angel
oscar for the moral support

pom!!!

......
and i fell in love with you, george

being good

hindi lang talaga sya mawala sa isip ko kaya feeling ko kailangan ko syang isulat...

"you're a good person", sabi ni kjersti nung tuesday night after naming kainin ang horrorific home-made pizza ko. nabigla ako, yes. at napatawa. ng malakas. pero when i looked at her, mukha syang seryoso. kaya naman natahimik ako at nagsabi ng seryoso ding "thank you".

wala pa, sa tanang buhay ko, wala pang kahit sino na naglakas loob na magsabi sa akin na mabuting tao ako. kaya bago sya sa akin. makatalinghaga. hindi kapani-paniwala. shocking!

taliwas kasi sya sa paniniwala ko sa sarili ko. buo ang aking paninindigan na ako ang pinakamasamang tao sa buong mundo. AT! kung meron mang nag-e-exist na tao na mas masama pa sa akin, hahanapin ko sya at papatayin para ako pa rin ang title holder ng pagiging masama. ganun!

hindi ko alam kung anong nasagi sa isip ni kjersti at nasabi nya yun? baka gusto lang nyang i-uplift ang ego ko dahil sobrang na-disappoint ako sa kinalabasan ng pizza ko?...or baka sobrang maikli pa yung 1 month para makilala nya kung sino at ano ang totoong ako. bwahahahaha! wait after 2 months!

kung ano man ang nakita ni kjersti sa akin, ewan! pero parang kasing convincing yung sinabi nya at ang pagkasabi niya. napi-pressure tuloy akong magpakabait. ano ba!