i've got me

instead of crying myself to sleep, i decided to re-pack my luggage.

i am so scared right now. not to mention, alone. i wish there's somebody or anybody who would say to me "i've got you. it's going to be okay". but no. i have nobody to lean on. i've only got myself. so i have to be strong for me. i've always been there for myself and this feeling isn't new to me. it's just that, i forgot how it is to be scared. i know i'll get through this.

changes shouldn't be scary. they should be exciting! going back home should be exciting. but why am i so anxious about it?

phew! whatever happens, i've got me!