how do you dry your eyes?

one day, i found myself all alone again... for a while now, i thought that i found someone whom i'm going to be with for the rest of my life. but no...reality always kicks me where it hurts the most, to remind me that i will always be alone. that in this lifetime, i will have to face my battles all by myself. and i have to be strong. i have to bear the sleepless nights for now. i have to force a smile to let everyone know that i'm okay. i have to mum my cries at night and every time i see something that reminds me of him, which is so hard because everywhere i look, his memory is there. i can't even look at a siopao without crying. i refuse to eat at green mango. it's excruciating to look at the pictures that reminds of the happy memories...how can something so wonderful had to end? oh dear god! i am so tired of feeling crashed and hurt. i am so tired of acting that i am strong.i just want to fall asleep and wake up healed and whole again. if i can just get one night of proper sleep, maybe, just maybe, i will be better. if i can just get away from this city where we walked along hand in hand, maybe i will heal faster. i know that one day, the broken pieces of my heart will be molded back into place. my shield will be whole again. i will be able to protect myself from anyone. i hope that i'll be able to live, love and laugh again...