puppy love

our little jack russel is in love with our neighbor's labrador.

that explains all his frequent runaway (which made me cry for eternity); his painful howling at night; the never-ending sniffing; the testosterone rush; and may i also add the loss of appetite? (naks!)

i don't want to interfere with kuya oscar's lovelife. but as we were walking this morning, i told him that, when it comes to love, he has my all out support. but, aguida is a labrador, a big labrador at that. wouldn't it be more appropriate if he fall for someone his own size or the same breed?

right, i'm still meddling.

but wait. if they're going to have puppies, what will they be called? labrier? terriedor?

it's somehow a relief that the family's going to spend the holy week at the cottage. i hope that one week is enough for oscar to forget his first love. i hope he'll meet another terrier.

ah, my kuya oscar and his puppy love. cute.

the edge of patience

i really thought i was doing a good job on holding my patience intact. apparently, my mental-timer was set for only 10 days. i can feel it wearing off. quickly. i snapped but just in time to hold a snarl.

i needed to be alone to calm myself...i extended the patience-timer for a little bit longer. like, 6 more hours...

all the angels and saints...help me. please.

mader-maderan

7 days na akong nanay-nanayan. apat na tulog na lang at single na ulit ako!

buti na lang hindi mahirap kausap ang orc ko. kahit hindi kami nagkakaintindihan minsan, dahil nga hindi ko pa masyadong nai-embrace ang nynorsk, eh, nagagawan naman ng paraan. at sa pang pitong araw na ito, super cool pa rin ang aming samahan.

actually, masaya sya. ang maging nanay-nanayan. lalo na nung weekend. andon lang kami sa terrace, at in-enjoy ang first "t-shirt lang" day namin. at nung naglaro kami ng bowling, super feel ko talaga ang motherhood. syempre more ang cheer ko sa orc ko. kasi mas magaling pa syang mag bowling kesa sa akin. at kahit na mapakanal man ang bola, cheer pa rin ako sa kanya. give them a sense of pride di ba, sabi nung sa kanta. at nag improve na rin sya sa swimming. kaya na nyang mag slide na sya na lang mag isa. nung first nya na tinry yun, andun talaga ako sa end ng slide at naghihintay sa kanya. proud moment ko yun! grabe! di ko ma explain ang kaligayahan ko.

in a way, natuto naman akong maging responsible for another human being. kasi nga di ako sanay. may sariling mundo nga ako, di ba? at ako at ako lang ang iniisip ko. pero ngayon, okay naman pala sya. napapakain ko naman sya sa oras. nagigising on time para pumasok sa kindergarten, napapabihisan ko naman sya, may bedtime stories din naman kami...and mukha naman syang happy. so kahit papaano parang napi feel ko na successful naman ang pagiging nanay ko for 7 days.

sabi ng bestfriend ko, meron na daw akong mother's instinct. okay fine!

jan na lang muna ang mother's instinct na yan habang wala pa akong sperm donor.

freaking!

for someone who is so used to having a cool, undisturbed and out of this world existence, just a mere e-encounter with a long lost friend is freaking!

so i woke up with the thought of hugh...it was overwhelming! can you imagine how defeaning my heart's dubdub was, when, i was still on the process of pouring out all my emotions on hugh, and out of a sudden this long lost friend appeared on my computer screen with a "joanna hello!"?

i was in panic! my whole world shook! i couldn't contain the happiness, confusion, fear, agony, shame....i wanted to jump off the cliff just a few meters outside my bedroom!

okay, breath in...breath out (1 million times)

why such an effect? say, i sent this long lost friend an email of my confession...that i was (or still) in love with him. i sent to him the most outrageous email i've ever composed in my 29 years of existence almost a year ago. and what was so shameful about this whole confession thing was that, he didn't even believe me! he thought i was just making a BIG joke!

and so
i made a vow of silence
between him and me

we didn't hear anything from each other after that.
not until that hughful saturday morning.

of course, i tried to fish for something but he was playing safe and so was i. i figured, my confession is a taboo so i didn't brought it up. i didn't want to scare him away. the conversation was plain and somehow comforting but mostly freaking (for me, at least)

god, i miss him! a lot!

i ended our chat with an "i love you"
and he replied with a FREAKING
"i love you too"

to balance that freaking morning, i joined my friends for dinner. i wanted to drown on the 1-year beer supply of sharon. i drank as much as my tummy can take. if i could only fill my lungs with beer, i could have drank more. anyway, i thought my beer intake would put me to a long and undisturbed sleep. but no! i was freaking out because sleep didn't come. i was freaking awake for the entire freaking night!

now, i am a certified freaking freak!!!

yes, it's hugh!

i woke up this morning and the first person who entered into my semi-conscious mind...hugh jackman. what could be better than that? huh?! seriously, hugh brightened the hues of my saturDAY!

so, instinctively, i got out of my bed and checked the time. it was only 0830. let's say, it's quite early to get up on a weekend. but what the heck! i needed to check on my hugh!

i turned on my obsolete pc and at times like these i needed to recite my mantra "patience is a virtue" for 1 million times before getting to the main page. okay...moving on....

youtube. i checked on the oscar's 2009. overwhelming emotions drowned me. i played the video clips in random. first, hugh and beyonce's medley of the greatest musicals ever! seeing hugh perform was a surprise to me! i know that he does musicals too, but i've never seen him perform. and seeing him like that, in the only thing that i am most passionate about, totally swept me off my seat. every vein in my human body was tingling. and before i even realize it, tears were streaming down my unwashed face. (yes, i could be so touchy sometimes when i watch a very outstanding stage performance) i needed to contain my emotions before moving on to the next clip which was the introduction. brilliant! totally brilliant! he's the guy who could put on a real show! i almost forgot that it was the oscar's. he certainly deserved the standing ovation from the greatest actors and actresses.

talk about starting the day right, huh!

PS. i thought i had so much to write about hugh....but something more distracting came up. and i couldn't formulate my thoughts quite properly. how can this possibly happen in one day?