i easily got used to having my konsensya around for a week. she went back to cebu the other day to start her new life. and i miss her terribly. i had that stinging feeling in the center of my chest when i saw her off the jeepney yesterday, after our late lunch.
i miss coming home from work when she'd wake up and kiss me goodnight, then waking up the next morning with her nagging that i sleep too much. i will miss her facial expression every time she drinks the coffee that i make for her. she'd complain that it's too bitter for her taste, but she'd drink it anyway.
during the big night of the dinagyang festival, all of our housemates went out for a drink. but we were not in the mood to hang out with a lot of people that we decided to stay home and watch a movie instead. "a little bit of heaven" that's what it was called. i was being entertained by the characters in the movie when i heard her sniffing at the other end of the sofa. oh, gosh! i forgot how easily she cries on movies. but when she started packing her things, i had my turn of sniffing and crying, too.
we talked about life that night. her fear of dying. her fear of the after life. her fear of the new life that she's heading on to. i just had to hold her hand and assure her that she has a family and friends to support her whatever happens. in fact, i admire her courage to face the unknown. no matter how much i want to protect her, she has to face her own challenges. she has to experience everything life has to offer.
growing apart is a part of growing up
see you next dinagyang, mader jona tambunting!
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