dear edward,

i feel empty.... i have been wandering around Stryn with an empty heart. at times like these, i wish that you'd make an apparition.

my dear edward, i have been walking with Oscar early this morning. it was cold and damp and gray...a lifeless morning. as lifeless as i am. as we reached my favorite bench along the mountainside a thought struck me! Stryn is a perfect place for you...and your family! yes! it rains here all the time. the mountains make it impossible for the sunshine to get through. there might be a lot of deers and moose somewhere in the forest for you to hunt...you wont get hungry.

it would be so nice to take a stroll in the forest with you. to hold your cold hand... i will bring Oscar with me, but please, my darling Edward...he can't be a part of your diet. i love him as much as i love you. so spare him, please...

i am uncertain how long this emptiness will possess my being...

my dearest, of this i am certain. i will always have you in my heart. and i will try, to think of you everytime another hole eats up my soul, because the mere thought of you brings me back to life. i will try to keep myself alive...and i will be hopefull everytime i visit my bench in the mountainside, that you will be there, waiting for me...

and if this world has nothing more left for me, Edward, my love, i would be much pleased to spend a million years with you....