my kuya

it has been exactly a month since......

i miss you a lot kuya Oscar. there hasn't been a day when i didn't think about you.

how are you doing up there in heaven? do you have a lot of playmates? i bet you are so happy over there : )

kuya, i've started to like Elvis. mmmm...i hope you won't think of me as a traitor. i know how you hated him and how you wanted to kill him everytime you see his fat ass. but he's nice afterall. he has gained more weight. he has been over-fed, over-loved, over-pampered.

kuya, i've learned from Andrè that cats purr when you pet them. i've never heard Elvis purr before. but now, i do! i've started to carry him around the house the way i carried you. i hug him. i hug him a lot because i miss you so much. i just close my eyes and imagine that it's you, my kuya Oscar, that i am hugging. but i never tell him my secrets. no.

do you hear me when i call out your name when i take a walk in the forest. can you hear me talking to you? i can picture out your reaction when i say all the things that i've said.

i love you Kuya Oscar. enjoy heaven!...and say hi to your friends from me.

i look up to you everyday.

my biggest hug to you my dear kuya....