yeyyyy!!! last day of quarantine! i'm so happy that i survived this Covid. it was like the worst flu ever with dark clouds in my head all the time. i hope no one will get sick of Covid anymore...
i got to take a walk in the forest today. complete with four seasons in a span of an hour walk. i couldn't ask for more 😀
i guess that was winter saying goodbye and spring saying hi 🌞
i've been feeling a little down since tuesday. yesterday at work, i already felt bad but i was determined to finish my shift. also, i tested negative for Covid, so i thought there's no reason for me to skip work.
last night, i didn't sleep well. my throat was painful and i woke up many times at night. i had to wake up a little bit after 4 am because my shift starts at 5:30 😪 it was really difficult to move around and prepare my stuffs. i took another test, still it's negative.
i didn't feel it's right to call one of the girls to do my shift if i call in sick because then, i would have to wake them up. so, i went to work, prepared breakfast and everything at the cafe. when the first customer came and when i greeted him, i was surprised at how husky my voice sounded. hey, i've always dreamt of having a husky voice 😀 i tried modulating my voice when talking to other customers because i sounded quite weird.
around 8 am, i was already thinking to call the girl who's doing the day shift if she could come earlier because i was starting to feel worse. i sent her a message before 9 and she answered that she will come as soon as possible.
i left work at 9:30 and headed straight to home. while walking, i felt like i was floating or flying. i felt light-headed. i was also feeling very cold. that kind of cold that you feel in the middle of winter when you're out somewhere and the wind sips into your bones.
when i got home, i took another Covid test and it was negative. i managed to eat some yoghurt then settled on the couch with a fleece blanket and a warm cat. i closed the blinds and fell asleep.
i woke up around 12 and i felt feverish and disoriented. i felt like i've been to another planet.
for the rest of the day, i stayed in bed, watched youtube vlogs and slept. my throat is still painful and i have cough. i checked my temperature earlier and it was normal.
now, i'm waiting for daddy to come home and maybe eat some ice cream 😁
yes! i'm back at the second-hand shop again. i was already thinking to go to Helsinki on my day-off. i've been wanting to visit a Mochi cafe in the city. i was on the same cafe foundation training with the two young Chinese owners last autumn. i've been following their instagram feed and the mochis look so yummy and vibrant!
but then, one of the workers here at the shop is sick and someone has to fill-in her shift. so. here i am...
it's been very quiet since i came at 1300. but one customer shopped a lot of stuffs and i'm so happy ^_^
i finally had the time (and money ^_^) to visit my dentist. i haven't been in her clinic since the pandemic started. yes, it's awful. anyway, after my first visit to her, she asked me to visit the following week for another cleaning session because she couldn't brush away all the yucky stuffs in between my gums and teeth.
so i went to her clinic this morning. since it's my day-off, i was a bit of a not-in-the-mood today because i'm not used to having an appointment on my day-off. i usually just lazy around the house or do something in the house when i'm not at work. and today, early in the morning, i had to rush to my dentist. sigh!
i climbed the stairs to the 5th floor because i'm scared of riding the elevator. when i got there, i was panting. it took a while before my breathing calmed down. and when i was calm enough, she called me to take the dental chair.
i would be very happy not to feel the pain in my gums and not to hear the hissing sound of the dental machine for a loooong time. i've had enough for this month and this year...
today is my day-off. lucky for me, because i can just relax all day. i didn't get to sleep so well last night. i woke up in the middle of the night to pee. when i got back to bed, i remembered that there's one woman who visited the cafe yesterday who looked so familiar. i kept on thinking where i've seen her. maybe, it was from one of my extra jobs... or somewhere else... so that thought kept me busy all night. weird, huh? but that happens to me.
also, i heard something that sounded like an airplane. and i got scared thinking, what if it's a war plane?... well, these days, you never know, right?
i'm spending my day-off in the second-hand shop. it's my fourth time being here and i'm kind of liking it. i have been hesitant to work here at first, because everything that's new scares me and stresses me out. but now that i'm getting used to it, i don't mind at all. the customers are fairly nice and i haven't encountered any problems, so far.
for someone who doesn't speak fluent Finnish, it's a wonder to me how to connect with people. when people do small talks and make jokes, that's when i have some difficulty dealing with them. but when they just talk straight and say what they mean, then it's easier for me.
there's a lot of action from kids and parents (usually mothers) when they visit here. i just hide my smile behind my mask when i listen to some funny conversations between parents and their kids. so it's not a totally bad way to spend my rest day at work.
as i was editing this video, i was so stressed because of some stuffs at work. but i resolved to let it go and take it easy. when i got to work, i apologized to the ranting girl and everything was okay. one thing that i've learned here is to talk things out. you just have to be brave and let your mind and feelings be heard. i am used to keep everything for myself, it's a struggle to open up to others. it's still a struggle. but to survive in the work environment here, i have to be brave and accept my shortcomings and communicate with others. i may not do this all the time, but i try. and it really helps if you let the other person know what's bothering you.
so my work day went all so well. everything was so light eventhough it was quite busy. it's a nice way to end the week with a big smile and a clear mind...
i'm slowly catching up with the videos that i need to edit. hehehe... i'm recently hooked to a 2015 K-drama called "she was pretty". it's nakakakilig!!! and the story is nice, too!
also, i've started with " inventing Anna", another Netflix series. it's also good and now i'm on episode 4.
my life lately has been relaxing because of Netflix. i'm always looking forward to come home and continue watching my favorite series. especially when things are so messed up at work, thinking of my k-dramas makes me feel better. ( may mas mababaw pa ba na tao kesa sa akin? )
i have started with my intermittent fasting. i'm on my 5th day today. so far it's been okay. i just had to struggle a little bit this morning because i woke up early and it's my day-off. but when i was in the morning shift, it was so easy. the timing is just perfect. so far i have controlled any urge to grab a croissant or karjalan piirakka. i hope i'll be able to keep it up!
as expected, i haven't been consistent with my 365-day challenge to myself. but well...let's just move on...😁
last weekend, daddy's daughter and her family were here to spend some time with us. it's always nice to have the kids with us. we were sleighing down the snow hill that daddy made, played with their toys and answered some challenging questions from the 6-year old granddaughter. it's a good thing that they are openly talking about things like divorce and death. adults answer the wonderings of a child honestly and simply.
that made me think...did i ask about these kinds of questions when i was a child? did i ask about death? did my parents answer me or did they tell me not to think about stuffs like that?
if you're like me who wakes up in the morning with a craving for something sweet, and you see a couple of ripe bananas on the kitchen counter, then probably, you'll end up making this banana cake too. 😄😄😄
i don't bake as often as i used to... or the better way to say it is, i don't make experiments in the kitchen as i used to. when i first came to Finland, i would spend hours watching baking videos on youtube. when i see something that looks nice and yummy, i will try it right away. i didn't succeed most of the time. but when i did, i really felt happy.
lately, baking experiments have been put aside ( with the exception of making korvapusti, of course, which is daddy's favorite ) because i don't have time and i'm lazy and i don't watch baking videos anymore. when i bake something, it's only for giving in to my craving. 😅 that's how this banana cake was made. to answer my sweet cravings...
everytime i'm walking back home from a morning shift, a lot of things are running through my head. mostly about the chores that i need to do when i get home. in my mind, i will do the laundry, fold the clothes that i washed, do some exercise, crochet and all the other house chores that comes to mind that i need to do.
but you know what? when i get home, all i do is sit on the sofa, watch K-drama and when my eyes get heavy, i will take a long nap. what's left of my energy after work is so little, that i feel so weak once i'm on the sofa.
today, daddy was watching a Tom Hanks' movie when i came home. i headed right away to the sofa and watched the movie for a while and the rest of the time, i was somewhere in dreamland.
it was a snowy night and the wind was so strong that it seemed like a storm. or may be it was what they call the "January storm". daddy spent the night in their working place, so i was alone with the girls. and, i got to spend more time editing videos. hehehe.
this morning when i opened the door to go out with Fasu, the snow on our staircase was about an inch thick... or more. i'm not so good in measurements... but there was a lot of snow.
since my weatherman said that it's not going to snow anymore today, i started to do the snow work in our frontyard. it was a good morning workout. Fasu also had fun in running all around the yard.
i baked cinnamon buns! yes, after quite a long time. i used to bake a lot before but nowadays, i don't have any more energy to do it. i made them for daddy because he loves to eat korvapusti. something to welcome him home this evening. 😋
